Lucid: a micro-memoir
by Kia Alice Groom
forthcoming (2019 — release date TBD)
Ten Step Tulpamancy
To begin, carry trauma like an amulet. Kiss its three sharp
corners. Shine its ugly armor.
Recall the chalk clouds. Recall the scent of symbols scratched
deep on motel walls. Remember rising damp, the face in the
mildew that told you do not be afraid.
On the unclean bedspread, summon your sixteenth birthday.
Snuff the candles, ask for time re-written. Ask for the
package left unopened on your dresser. Wish perfected
childhood. Wish unbroken skin.
To make a Tulpa, carry books to bed. Lie on a lumpy
mattress & dictate your woes to furniture. Lie & map
imaginary houses. Map topography of bodies. Think: how will
his paper limbs assemble into flesh? How will it feel with one half of the
To make a Tulpa, practice self-negation. Hollow your head
and light the neon Vacancy.
Consider the shape of your hand as you teach yourself falling.
Curl two fingers: beckon closer.
Crown yourself with polished trauma. Balance amulet
between your eyes & watch the dark soak through the
Kiss residue from motel's plaster split. Tongue holes in sacred
symbols. Kiss his three sharp corners.
Unopen package. Hold self inside imagined houses. Wait for
tenants. Wait for occupation.
Break your skin on faith and mean it.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kia Alice Groom is a British born, Australian raised writer & occultist currently living in New Orleans, Louisiana, where she received an MFA in Poetry from the University of New Orleans in 2015. Currently, she works as a full-time tarot reader and intuitive healer, and divides the rest of her time between her therapist, her cats, and wherever she goes when she falls asleep. Her work has appeared in numerous journals and anthologies including Westerly, Overland, and the Hunter Anthology of Contemporary Australian Feminist Poetry. You can find her online at www.kiagroom.com and @whodreamedit on other platforms.
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